Tuesday, April 16, 2013

Soul tired

Yesterday, I brought Iñigo to the playground just before the end of an incredibly tiring day. Having small children, every day is an incredibly tiring day but yesterday was unusual because even my soul was tired.

I said hello to the other children, to the yayas, to the other mommies. Then I saw my Praying Wives friends Earl and Claire. I didn't say anything. I didn't even frown. I know I smiled, I know I did, so I don't know why Earl looked at me and said, "Come here. You need a hug."

And she hugged me tight and I thought I was going to collapse then and there in complete exhaustion. But she held me up and she said, "Let it go. Let it out." And I did.

Dear God, I love my family and I am beyond grateful I have my beautiful boys. They are more than enough! And yet You, in all Your wisdom, also gave me friends who can see right through my soul and hold my head up during those times when motherhood threatens to drown me. Because You know that I can't do it all. Thank You for sending me real-life angels to help me look up and beyond the nitty-gritty and see how truly blessed I am.

God bless you, Dada, Cathee, Earl and Claire! You have saved me from the brink many times!

20 comments:

  1. Having mommy friends (or even just girlfriends) is really something ALL of us ladies need! :) I know what you mean by "soul tired" — been there lots of times myself. Praying for you and hope you feel better in every way already! :)

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    1. Yeah, I love my non-mommy girlfriends, too! It's sometimes nice to NOT talk about the kids hahaha You know, just talk about Hollywood celebs and shopping for shoes and clothes (instead of diapers and milk!) =P

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  2. Awww I know very well how that day feels like Frances. Sending you super hugs too. And yes I agree that having mommy friends like yours is essential to keeping one's sanity. Hang in there! It's gonna get better!

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    1. It's better already. Thanks! Some days are just really bad. Today is really good =)

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  3. Hi Mommy Frances!

    I can relate with you too! I have 2 kids ages 2 and 6 months. Though right now I have 2 househelp to help me out in our house since I am working also, it's kind of stressful pa rin. Even if I want to take care and be hands on on my kids about their needs and etc., having helpers doesn't guarantee that everything in the house is ran smoothly as I'd like it to be. Minsan nagiging hassle pa rin and sakit sa ulo. Nevertheless, i admire you for being able to carry yourself very well and look good pa rin without any helpers at all and having 2 boys or make it 3 boys in the house! You don't look stressful at all. You are very pretty and knows how to manage your household. How'd you do it? Always my support.

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    1. Naks! Thanks! That's because I don't post photos of myself at home! If you saw me right now, in my tank top and yoga pants with my hair in a bun matatawa ka haha =)

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  4. It is such a blessing to have friends who know what you are going through without telling them. There will be more tiring days to come but as long as we have friends who will be there no matter what, we will always get through at the end of the day .

    Blessings !

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    1. Yeah, buti pa nga now cute pa mga babies. My friends who have teenagers always say, "That's nothing. Wait till they're teens. You want to kill them every day." LOL

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  5. I am as well thankful that I have my friends too whom I could really count on... they know when to just shut up and let me talk and knows when to make me smile... and just be there... And yes there are those days na you're really tired... I know what you mean. I do have 2 pre-teens and a 6 year old girl. hehehe!

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  6. You are blessed with some true friends.. you should keep them Not everyone were bleesed like you are...:)
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  7. Huhuhu, I know what you mean about "soul tired." Ang hirap talaga to do it all on our own, and there are those "Jonah days" as Anne of Green Gables says. It's good you have prayer support AND mom support in your group. There's a verse in the Bible that says faithful friends are sturdy shelters, and that's what those ladies are for you. What a blessing.

    Thought you might like this: http://www.stevewiens.com/2013/03/12/to-parents-of-small-children-let-me-be-the-one-who-says-it-out-loud/ I can especially relate to the part about holding them underwater, haha.

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    1. I read that! It is so true! I'm so glad he said it. Parenting is not easy. Supermom is such a status now and I really wish it isn't! It's hard enough to be a good parent but now we have to be super??? The pressure will kill us!

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  8. I get what you mean frances. I have three girls and two are under 5 and also no helper or yaya. Yes there are days when you just want to give up and friends are really a great comfort during these times. What I do is feed the two younger ones, keep them entertained and ask for my eldest to look after them even for just 5 minutes and then I go to our room and just lie in bed and I am energized. Just accept that there are good and bad days and let go of the bad and cherish the good. You are doing a great job. Never give up.

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    1. I can't wait for my kids to grow up a bit then! Para I can tell them to watch out for each other, too. Oh wait. Mommy Grechie above said her kids are almost teens na and she still gets soul tired!!! =P

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  9. I need friends mums or otherwise =( I am in a place where i feel lonely and sad and far from home and friends could do wonders in my ... soul... but i am not as lucky as you =(

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    1. Aww. That's why I started blogging! I've met the most amazing people online. God bless your dear heart and send you friends!!!

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  10. Hay I thought I am the only one who experiences that hehe. Oo nga pressure maging super mom :) Me too I have girlfriends but konti lang ang mommy pa lang. I always read my favorite mommyblogs (including you) kasi I can relate to almost everything that what is going on with them. It is nice din na mommy bloggers share even mga ganitong scenarios. Just like you nagkaron din ako ng times na ako lang with the kids kasi walang yaya. Nagkaproblem din in getting yaya, changing yaya, hiring the right yaya hay stressful! I have a 3yr old daughter and a baby boy who's turning 1 this Sat, just like your kids. Kaya I am a silent fan of yours now lang nagkalakas ng loob to comment. Kaya ang haba. haha I really salute all the career moms like us, wahm moms and simply all the moms in the world.

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    1. Yes, all moms who love their kids are super moms =) We should all love and support each other. Our job is so important!!!

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