Okay, I'm getting all emotional! Especially when I look through this blog and see how Vito's grown! Let me share with you a few photos just from this year alone:
I am caught by surprise by these photos. Even though I am so present in my children's life, I'm also almost always distracted by home concerns, work, and (the most distracting of all) the younger children to be focused on Vito. I know these moments happened (I was there!) but I never seemed to have the time to stop and soak it in because Piero needed to breastfeed or Iñigo had a bug bite. I saw it happen and then I looked away. Thank goodness for photos then!
I don't regret having three children (the more, the merrier!), but I also wish that there were three of me so each child could have me 24/7. Thank heavens his Papa, my amazing Vince, is always there when I can't. He's especially there for Vito. They are such buddies. Iñigo and Piero, being still babies, are with me more, although Iñigo is now moving into his Papa and Vito's circle.
Still, I can't complain! I work from home so I'm with the boys constantly. I guess I'm just being greedy with the time because it's slipping by so quickly. I mean, just look at Vito. He's a big boy, all of a sudden! I was there every single day in the last 5 years of his life, feeding him, teaching him, playing with him, praying with him, singing with him. And yet I am taken aback—when did he grow up?
I'm reminded of the story in the Bible, about Martha and Mary. Jesus was invited to rest at the house of the siblings Martha, Mary and Lazarus. Martha was busy taking care of Jesus's needs—his food, his comfort. Mary was busy just basking in the Lord's presence. Martha complained to Jesus and He replied, "Martha, Martha. You are worried and upset about many things but few things are needed—or indeed only one. Mary has chosen what is better and it will not be taken away from her." (Luke 10:41-42).
This story is about us being so caught up in good work for Christ that we forget Christ. It should be our love for Christ makes us do the good work. It's not the other way around: Good work in His name will not create the relationship; we have to have the relationship first. Good work for Christ without getting to know Him will just cause us to get tired, resentful and stressed out. There is no joy in serving a God we don't know.
In the same way, this applies to motherhood. Perfect analogy actually since mothers are soooo busy with the nitty-gritty that we many times forget to just enjoy our children—the reason why we're so busy with the nitty-gritty! Many times I find myself annoyed and easily upset because I'm just so tired serving, serving, serving. This Bible story reminds me to stop getting upset! JUST LOVE THEM! Let us choose to get to know them, enjoy them, be with them, love them—and when we do, we have chosen what is better and it will not be taken away from us. Love first. Everything else follows.
God bless us, mommies!
P.S. Thank you everyone for your birthday greetings for Vito. I especially loved the ones who called him "Jelly Bean." Thank you for remembering Vito's nickname, a nickname I've forgotten! Wow. You really have been there from the beginning. Thank you for loving my Jelly Bean, watching him grow up, and blessing him!
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